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shattered

shattered

I threw my life on the ground and watched it shatter.

In a single moment everything, everything that I knew changed.

I raged, wept and futilely tried to put the pieces together.

 

I do not remember the moment I realized that my hands where cut and my blood dulled the once bright edges.

I put the shards down and backed away.

From a distance I could see the irrevocable change

But my hands still reached out.

Sheer force of will and the desire to heal stayed them time and time again.

 

Now a few scares stretch as my hands move once more towards the pieces.

Instead of seeking to replicate what once was, they nimbly dust and wash each;

Looking for the qualities that only it contains: a color, a shape or curvature.

Carefully I lay them out in the mud of this new life.

 

I am unsure how one piece will sit next to another: if the edges will combine to please the eye,

If the colors still compliment in this erratic new state.

But as each piece finds its place I see the whole better, I trust the wisdom of my hands.

It is not the piece I set out to make, not in its function or form

But it is stronger and more beautiful for the breaking.

AC 2012

The versatile blogger: me?

The versatile blogger: me?

I must start by saying how sweet I think this is!!! Also  that I’m not sure I deserve it. I have ready so many wonderful blogs that are really dedicated and half the time I feel that mine is all over the place. It’s nice to know that some where in all that rambling and hit and miss that it touched some of you and made a connection.

So here’s to the blogs that I read and some randomness about myself.

There are rules to getting awards.

1. Thank the people who give them to you and link to their blog.

http://nuggetsandpearls.wordpress.com/ (a wonderful spunky blog about life)

2.  Next nominate 15 Bloggers for this award and notify them about the nomination. I’m not sure I follow 15 blogs but here goes:

  1. http://brownpaperbaggirl.wordpress.com/
  2. http://christinacronk.wordpress.com/
  3. http://eviemariestewart.wordpress.com/
  4. http://nuggetsandpearls.wordpress.com/
  5. http://photographyfree4all.wordpress.com/
  6. http://justramblinpier.wordpress.com/
  7. http://altonwoods.wordpress.com/
  8. http://bendedspoon.wordpress.com/
  9. http://edenhills.wordpress.com/
  10. http://ram0singhal.wordpress.com/
  11. the un-named blog of my beloved friend

3.  Finally, tell readers 7 things about yourself.

  1. I am very defined as a “middle” child. I have one older brother and a younger sister. I classically fall into a peacemaker role in most situations in my life and I like being a caring, good listener kind of friend.
  2. I have two cats, who pretty much take up my whole non-working world. In general I am passionate about animals but I could not imagine my life with out them
  3. I was married and now I’m not. It has been the greatest lesson of my life.
  4. I have no idea where I am going to “be” in the next year let along five. I used to be a teacher but now I work in an office. Who knows what the next bend will bring.
  5. Mostly vegetarian (I know for you true veggies out there I’m not but I do my best) blood type a positive and all, it suites me.
  6. I love making all kinds of stuff from sculptures to scrap-booking. I believe that creativity once tapped will over flow into any path it can find.
  7. I am on the journey to find my bliss again. After the past year, I have done a lot of questioning and doubting. I think I’m finally getting ready to love myself and my life again.

Deva Premal Gayatri Mantra

Deva Premal Gayatri Mantra

Lyrics :

‘Om bhur bhuvaha svaha
Tat savitur varenyam
Bhargo devasya dhimahi
Dhiyo yonah prachodayat’

‘We meditate on the transcendental Glory of the Deity Supreme, who is inside the heart of the earth, inside the life of the sky and inside the soul of Heave. May He stimulate and illuminate our minds.’

you do the math

you do the math

Dating, 365, 52.1, 12.1

Engaged, 574.5, 82.07, 19.15

Married 1,825, 260.71, 60.8

Total 2764.5, 394.92, 92.15

Days, Weeks and Months spent with you.

 

My life so far

11315

Days I lived before you

7665

Days yet to live, given I make it to 65

12410

Total number to 65

23725

 

You = less than 12% of my life

It helps to get a little perspective.

 

AC 2011

 

Past, Present, Future

Past, Present, Future

On day my heart will stop tearing itself apart,

On day peace and hope will fill it again.

One day I will remember the person I once was

And the person I will be again.

But yesterday my world burnt to a cinder,

Yesterday my best friend broke my heart.

Yesterday everything I though I knew turned to vapor

And a void was left in the place of my dreams.

So today I move on trying to breathe,

Today my heart is carried far from my sleeve.

Today I cry the hot stinging tears of confusion

And regret.

But only for today.

AC 2011